Day 2

Ok, before I start on today, I want to wrap up day 1 of the detox. When I left off, I hadn't had lunch or dinner yet. But it was ok. The rest of the day was relatively uneventful. I did crave some other foods, but the cravings weren't so bad, and they went away after about a minute or so. I had my broth which, after the rice protein shakes, was like heaven! What I did notice during the afternoon hours was a really bad bout with gas. It was often and it hurt my stomach a little bit because I'm at work and I had to hold them in until I could get to a bathroom, which was kind of hard sometimes. When I got home I wasn't really hungry, which was good. I had not, though, moved my bowels all day, so before I went to bed I drank a cup of Smooth Move tea (senna), with no sugar or artificial sweetener - blah. Afterward, I had the last dose of bentonite clay and magnesium and went to bed. I slept like a champ, as a matter of fact, it was extremely hard to get out of bed this morning. I have not done yoga yet in this detox diet, as is suggested. I have class on Mondays and Tuesdays until 9pm. And after working all day, and class for 3 hours, when I get home, I'm not doing anything! But I'm going to try to do it tomorrow after work. I have been on some short, but brisk walks (not counting the many trips to the bathroom during work! :-) )

I woke up today with a headache from the senna - it always gives me a headache, so I can't contribute the headache to the detox diet. I tried my rice protein shake with organic frozen cherries in it, and I have to say, it was a lot more palatable that way, but still kind of gross. I think I'm starting to get the hang of this thing and all of the pills, etc. Not to say that I LIKE it, but I am very interested to see how much better I feel and if I've lost any weight, which by the way, I should because I'm only consuming around 900-1000 calories a day.

So far today I have had my 2 rice proteins hakes, most of the pills I have to take, a cup of broth, and lunch of veggies and rice. Today I brought some organic purple grapes because I haven't been able to get down all of those sauteed veggies - not good with no fat/salt/pepper on them! I may have to doctor them up a bit, otherwise I'll never eat them the way I should. A LITTLE olive oil in the prep shouldn't make a big difference, especially since I'm allowed to have a salad and put a dressing on it consisteing of lemon juice, olive oil and garlic. So obviously, SOME fat other than the flax and borage oil is ok.

As far as how I feel...I still have the headache (I did take 2 advil because I just couldn't take it anymore - I know it probably defeats some of the purpose of detoxing, but I still have a lot more of my day left to deal with, without having to deal with an every-increasing headache). In addition, I feel a little dizzy and out of it, and I'm VERY tired...not sleepy, but I just feel like my body wants to lay down and rest. When I stretch, my muscles ache a little, which I recognize as my body bitching about the minimal food it's getting. I did move my bowels today, twice. The first one was quite normal for me in all respects. The second one was small, had an odd odor - not stinky per se, but odd, and it was a dark color and quite runny, which I know may be because of the magnesium. I am drinking more water today in an effort to keep that clay moving on through my body. Oh! And my period started today. Booo! So I had minor cramps earlier, but they seem to have subsided (even before I took the Advil).

I'm having more cravings today than I did yesterday. I want ALL of the things I cannot have! I want eggs with cheese on/in them, and my lemonheads and cherryheads, and I want Mountain Dew, Oh! and those cheese and peanut butter crackers!! I REALLY want a package of those!! I walked behind some woman during my walk today who was smoking and I purposely walked in the wake of her smoke, and was surprised to note that I didn't really crave a cigarette...which I ALWAYS do!! So that's at least a good thing. But damn! I want my junk food! Oh! And my sister made the best brownies for Mother's day, and I could go for about 10 of those right now! But other than that, I'm ok...but I DO just want to go to bed and rest.

Day 1

Ok, so over the weekend, I got all of the things/supplements/foods that I need to do this detox...to the tune of $300.00!!! Damn! I know, I know, it's a lot of money, but most of the supplements should last for a long time. The veggies and fish, I will need to buy again if I continue this for more than a week, but at least it's better for me than all the junk I've been eating! And frankly, I got on the scale this am, and I weigh in at a whopping 131 lbs!!! I am 5'2" and I have a small frame!! I should NOT weight that much!! I need to lose 20 lbs, and I figure this detox will be a good way to drop some weight and clean out my system, so it's ON!

So far this am, and it's 10am EST, I have consumed vitamin c crystals disolved in water, 2 Tbp of Bentonite clay, 2 tsp benefiber in water, 1 tsp of probiotics disolved in water, 1 cup of hot water with 1/2 of a fresh squeezed lemon in it, rice protein shake (YUCK) w/ ground flax seeds and raspberries, and 3 flax and borage oil capsules. I have also already taken 1 milk thistle pill, 1 magnesium pill. I have peed at least 5 times already this morning, and the color is pale, pale yellow (like the juice of a lemon), which I hear is good.

I have to say that I am cranky, but I don't know how much of that is due to the detox diet, as opposed to the fact that my period is to start this week. And to be honest, I'm not super cranky, I just want to be left alone, which gratefully I usually am at work. I think I'm also a little cranky because I miss my boyfriend. We usually spend most of the week together, and I couldn't see him last night because I had to prepare all of this detox stuff for the next couple of days because I have night school after work on Mondays and Tuesdays until 9 pm. So that means I had to prepare every meal and allowed snack for this detox thing last night. And since I have class tonight and tomorrow and I need to get up extra early to do yoga (Yeah, another thing I must do on this detox), I need to go to bed as early as I possibly can. So I probably will not be able to see him for the next few days. Ugh! I love being with him so much! I hate knowing that days will go by and I won't see him!

OK, so since I have school tonight and there's no way I can heat up my dinner of 1/2 cup brown rice, 2 cups of lightly sauteed veggies, and 4-6 oz of fish (I have cod) at school, so I have to eat it while I'm still at work. So therefore, I ate breakfast (such as it was) at 8:15-ish, and I have to have my morning snack soon. Another rice protein shake (ICK) and 1 cup of vegetable broth and/or vegetable juice. I made the veggie broth according to specifications int his detox book, but I added some salt to it. I HAD to!! It was way too bland otherwise! So we'll see how it tastes. I'm really not hungry at all, but I DO have to pee again!! So this will be like the 6th time. This is starting to remind me of being pregnant. lol

So far so good as far as caffeine withdrawal is going. I usually don't drink too much caffeine. But I do usually have 1 cup in the mornings at work. But so far, so good. No headaches, etc...unless that's partially to blame for my crankiness! lol

Wel, that's it for now. I'll report again later in the day.

Scared

OK, so I started this blog so that I could journal my progress when I start my detox. I have semi-committed to this process. I say 'semi-committed' because I know I need to clense my system because I eat junk, smoke periodically, need to lose 15 lbs., and drink to excess almost every single time I get the chance. But frankly, I'm scared. I KNOW this will be a good way to jump start my weight loss, and to get my body back into a good place...but DAMN! The thought of having to actually monitor what I consume and be regimented to the extreme scares me! The SECOND that I think about all of the things I will have to give up, the more I want them all!! Whether or not I ever ate/did/drank them before! UGH! Why is life so difficult? The other reason I say I am 'semi-committed' to the detox is because I have done little preparation for this thing. I have not refrained from eating sugar or white flour products, and today was a particularly stressful day, so I consumed more, not less, caffeine than I usually do. UGH! I gues my mother was right all of these years, I DO do things the hard way!

I bought 'The Detox Box" by Mark Hyman, M.D. about 2 weeks ago, and I'm anxious to get the party started, so we'll see how it goes. I am going ot start Monday, May 15, 2006. Mostly because Sunday is Mother's Day, and I know I'm going to eat like a pig because I'm a mom, damn it! It's MY day! lol Which, I'm sure will make the deprivation of the detox the next day all the more horrifying, but oh well...